An apology letter

Hola everybody! 🤗

Just a thought of mine in a late night 

accompany by love instrumental.Literally, I'm not sleepy at all 

so yeah let's get starting.

I felt like I need to write something this night. it's about an apology letter to my own self. 

To: Nisa syakirah Shahrin Azuan

From: Your deepest heart

hola hola hola Nisa! I hope you feel better day by day. as I see, you're trying your best to adapt and blend into your adulting life. Stay arise and grow well sunshine! So let's straight to the point, I'm writing you this letter to apologise for all of matters. 

sorry for your broken wings, 

sorry for not being in direction when you needed,

sorry for letting you down too many times,

sorry for your heavy heart feelings,

sorry for not taking care of yourself well,

sorry for ignoring the good whisper when you needed the most,

sorry for letting you fall in love for someone who are not halal for you this time,

sorry for making you feel wonder why need to be happen like this, 

sorry for pulling you away from your greatest love, Allah,

sorry for making you feel ungrateful, negative thoughts and overthinking thang.

I just want to let you know that I really love you, I heart you, I will not doubt you anymore cause, 

you're pretty in your way,

you shine glowly when you smile even pain takes away sometimes,

you're the most gentle person to your heart, 

your soul spread happiness and love to people surround you,

you're grateful girl who Allah sent many trials and tests but still manage to accept fate and redha.

you not settle down without thinking about Him.

In this reality, 

please stay strong and ask Allah for your guidance in every single steps of your life,

please give yourself your own space and the most importantly, you need to remember, every person who come is a part of learning process.

Allah will give you the reason and hikmah behind it. 

please get out from your mess mind, cause this world is not a permanent place for you to stay. it's akhirah babe! 

At this moment, I want to thank you 

for your sabr and tears to Him. 

keep on moving, your life is not gonna end like this meh. 

live your life eternally.

stay positive and be yourself.

Allah always beside you He indeed so near.

keep on chasing His redha

He knows your struggles.

He the All-Knowing of your heart. rely everything on Him. 

ahaaa you can include this Doa in your prayers or everytime you need it (despair, confuse, sad, heavy heart, joy, love)

Love, 

dearself. You.

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felt better Alhamdulillah. thank you Allah 

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